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Ben JordanThe mind behind the voice September 18 Secrets of the heartAnd as promised, I am back in full swing. It has taken a while, and my career is keeping me very busy, as there is a lot of travelling involved as well. I am out in the world again, having loads of fun with my career and have a few awsome friends who support me who understand that I have no desire of entering into a relationship again, well for now at least. There are a few things that I have learnt in the past few weeks that I will keep close for a really long time to come. I am healing as a person, and have to thank all those who have stuck by me trough this tumultuous period in my life.
I will be back with regular updates as often as I can, as I am headed to Cape Town again for a film shoot. I am however not sure whether I will be able to be online as much as I would like though August 21 RecoveryWell it has been a while, and with the help and support of close friends I have managed to recover some semblence of what should be a human being. The past few weeks have not been easy at all, but as life goes, we get hurt, we heal and carry on living as best we can being stronger for the next round. I am a firm believer in love and what it can mean, therefore I am willing to let people into my inner sanctum again, it will just tke a bit longer this time round. I have learnt a few dear lessons though this whole experience, which will undoubtedly aid me greatly in my future relationships.
I also know there is a log road that I still hve to travel before allowing myself to get involved in another relationship, and I am most certainly not looking for one right now. In time this too will happen
I look forward to sharing my insights and feelings with you again. Thank you for all the messages of support that I have received over the past few weeks, it is truly heartwarming to know there are poeple who still care.... July 16 Being singleMy dear friends It has been a while since I posted a blog, and this one is completely different to the ones I have posted to date. I recently found myself to be single again, which I might add came as a huge shock to me. You see, I was single for 8 years after my last relationship. I was initially scared of entering into another relationship, but though what is the worst that could happen? Much to my shock and surprise, this one hurt more that all the others combined. It is drastically affecting the way I perceive life, love and companionship. At the tender age of 34, I feel that I am not meant to be loved and that I should spend my life alone. I don’t want to meet a ‘special person’ again, as I don’t want to get hurt again. I know this is quite strange coming from a man, but the truth is, as a musician and artist, I believe I am more in touch with my emotions, therefore I feel more intensely. It just begs the question, what have I done that was so horrible that I have to continue getting hurt? Have I offended the universe in an action or combination of actions to such an extent that I am not worthy of love? If only I had all the answers, life would be so simple. With this it might be some time before I post another blog, and I sincerely apologise for it, as there are so many people who have gained insight and wisdom from what I was able to share. I will however keep you posted on my progress. For now I am focussing all my energy and commitment to my career. At least there I don’t run the risk of getting shattered again. Till we meet again June 30 LonelinessHave you ever had this nagging feeling that you are completely alone in this world, even if you are constantly surrounded by people? I believe there are many individuals who feel this way. In this day and age where we are al caught up in the rat race that seems to dictate what society should and should not be and do, it is so easy to get lost in a crowd. There are voices and noises around us, yet we feel like there is no one who can hear our cries for help. Look closer at those who are in your space, then have another look. There are people pining away in our presence, yet we are too busy to hear their cries for help. It’s not easy to let go of our own inequities and feelings of neglect and loneliness, but the answer is as simple as extending a helping hand to someone else. If we look closer to those around us, with what they seem to be dealing with, our own problems seem to pale in comparison. Remember, there are those who need us more than we need them, and by helping someone else, we seem to bridge the gap between ourselves and the loneliness we experience. By helping someone else with their problems, we often find the answers to our own, and the world no longer seems such and awfully lonely place…. “I just met with someone very, very fond of you. Actually, everyone here is very, very fond of you. Anyway, this friend said to tell you that just because most people are looking for what they think they don't have, doesn't mean they don't have it. She also said you still look fab in black. Weird, huh? (I mean the first part...) Even far, far away, you have the greatest admirers. And I'm not just talking about the sun, the moon, and the stars.” June 27 ForgivenessHas someone close to you ever done something that you found to be extremely hurtful? Ask yourself the question: How did I handle the situation? Was there a heartfelt apology from this person? Don’t we all have moments where we do things that we feel ashamed of, and feel we can never forgive ourselves for? Place yourself then in the shoes of the person who you feel hurt you with their actions. The fact that they feel ashamed of their actions, those they know full well was hurtful to you, yet they still scraped together the courage to apologise to you, even though they are so embarrassed they can’t even face themselves. How did you handle the situation? Did you make it worse or better? Did you ask yourself?
I firmly believe there are things we all do that we don’t have the courage to own up to, yet we learn from them, and therein lay our own personal victory. “To err is human, to forgive, divine” I guess what I’m trying to say is that we all make mistakes, learn from them and personally grow from that wisdom. Unconditional Love is the only way we are able to get through these situations … the age old question thus still rings true – How deep is your Love? The worst mistake we as humans can make is two fold, not to forgive the mistakes of others, and to keep throwing it in their face….
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